Today was always going to be a bit of a poor day....I knew that when I woke up after having had a dream about smoking.
I don't remember too much about the dream except that I was riding a bike, and it must have been early in the morning (ie: dark) in dream time, because my logic was, "well I've smoked now, I might as well keep smoking for the rest of the day, and try again tomorrow".
All the while I felt guilty about having smoked at all, and then about my logic in continuing to smoke for the imaginary day.
Granted today wasn't a terrible day, but starting like that, it rolled into a VERY average day at work. Perhaps it was that Freya has today and the next few days off work, and I didn't have her there to temper and entertain me today.
Meanwhile, I have set myself another little target of detoxing. I've decided to attempt to give my body a complete break from all drugs, including caffeine. So my world of consumption consists of food, juice, lemonade and water........I think I want to slap myself!
Timeframe? not too sure yet. I was thinking a month, but i"m not so sure that will work out all that well, so for the time being, I think I'll make it a fortnight. I started yesterday, so I'll re-assess on Tuesday 29th March.
Onto the topic of the sobriety list, I think I might tackle items #40 and #41 this weekend, perhaps together. The idea of duel deprivation (one sensory, the other expressive) inspires just a little bit of curiosity in me. I love the sound of my own voice, so I'm not sure how I'll go without speaking for 24hrs. I even talk when I'm at home by myself.....well sing as much as talk (heaven help the neighbours). It should be an educational experience if nothing else.
Logistically I think I'll need to pre-prepare sandwiches or something of the like, and put them in a specific place in the fridge so that I can find them to sustain me for the day......hopefully I have enough of an idea of the layout of this apartment that I'll be able to feel my way around.
Well for now, I feel it's time I tried to tackle item #13 again.....I've had a bit of a fail so far :)
Ah! I forgot to mention that I've downloaded the Pimsleur Learn French lessons, so I've also begun on item #23 of the sobriety list.....next stop...the City of Light!
Enjoy your evening folks :)
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